bored.bored.bored.
i've got ugly rashes on my body, went to see the doctor who said the cause is unknown but some people think its by a virus by the scientific name of P- something. i cldnt catch what he said. anw its damn ugly, fortunately its not on the hands or legs. and fortunately its not infectious. or maybe, its better of being stuck at home for a few days.
i am worried about GP, it's less than in week. ah and extremely helpless. i always think that having a good grasp of the english language is something that you either have it or not. argh and i have no such inherent ability.

its been a looooong week.
argh, i hate writing testimonials. did it like 4 times in 2 weeks. 2 for interact ( cos we had to do another last min in 1 paragraph form), 1 for InE, 1 for Top 3 CCA achievements and 1 for Ms feng ( uncomplete). i feel bad talking stuff about me and just me, some things are rather insignificant but i had to keep harping on it, talking how great and honourable it was. on the other hand, if i do not do so i would feel injustice and lots more inferior to that "Su fen" and other guy described as examples in our Top 3 CCA ahievement handout. hahaha. and i am tired to keep repeating phrases. e.g" she is responsible, sensible, enjoys interacting with children, etc.." just makes me feel rather inadequate in my use of vocab. i need a thesauraus.

anyway the testimonial done for ms feng is incomplete cos i came to the section of : Other Potential and Interests. which exlcude CCa and studies. and tht means i have got nothing to write at all. cos really, i dont think i have any other hidden potential within me. was there any to be discussed in the first place? i have come to realize without cca and other activities, my life would just be evolving around studying and burying myself in books. i dont think i even have a hobby, as in a real hobby such as playing the piano, jogging??, um cycling.... do you count watching tv and and using the net as one? oh shoots, i should have just taken up some music lessons when i was young , at least i would have know how to play a musical instrument now. and guess what, my mum used to be a piano teacher and yet i know nothing about notes, sharps and flats. those black and white things are so foreign to me. suprise? i didnt know what exactly happend, just that when i was young my mother didnt come about teaching me and as years go by i never learnt.
now, i have decided...for the sake of my future and for the sake that i must something to devote my time to when im old, i shall pick up playing the piano after the 'a's ! do remind me ..

if you noticed, i've changed the words on the blue panel. im getting less and less positive about life. lol. NATION'S B'DAE tommorow. c-l-e-l-e-b-r-a-t-i-o-n now, come on .......... - -
didnt get high for today's national day celebration at school,we shouted some gibberish " rah rah rah we are green ..for singapore......" trying to look as though we know what we were cheering, just so that we can be loud and at least impress the teachers. that aside indian dance, wu shu were good and i only enjoyed singing 'home' at the end of the show. i wish we could do that longer like in nanyang where we just sang and sang for the whole time with our live girls band just in front of us. we got so high ,jumping and screaming shaking our heads off and i was even in my guides uniform . hahah and after that all of us would just chiong to orchard. i still have the funny neoprints we took, the one with us saluting and declaring we love singapore. and all i did today after school was lunch and sleep...

herms.

NJ didnt get in to the Semi finals for Showtime. moans.