i dont like the "me" in nj, finding myself getting more and more serious and it kind of suck. its weird,bad cos i dont usually use the word "suck". back to the pt, sometimes i find it hard to talk to anyone in class for some unknown reason. am i overly serious, unapproachable??? when i try to join in, i dunnoe, but it seems like nobody hears you,yet i dont really want to be a tag-along too. actually, i hate to admit but I do feel lonely at times among my classmates tho it really dosent look like on the front. everyone has their cliques or lets say ppl they usually hang out with, but i guess i cld say i dont or at least is nt the really consistent type. There were a number of times the same situation replays, class was right behind me when we were having breaks or abt to go to another classroom, and when i turned back, they disappear as in really bu4 jian4 diao4. The thing is nobody calls u although a friend was just walking behind seconds ago, everyone just move on. So I will find myself in the middle of many unfamiliar faces, all heading in different directions..i guess im still not comfortable here in nj. oh well, sad case la. haha someone needs to give me a crash course on ‘ How to make friends’. - -
tht is probably why i dont feel as close to my present class as compared to my 1st 3 mths one. or maybe its because ppl in my clique have left the class. yah la, i m the the sort who is rather dependent on friends so i hate this feeling of feeling lost.

i like to have fun in school agn. looking up mandy n yx in their classrooms,going for lunch (outside) aft sch, slacking in classroom, gg bishan, thomson, orchard aft sch..its been like how many months since i went coro?? and honestly, i miss it. in these 2 years ( really short one), really wish tht i can make real gd friends in class. for now, I can say tht im closer to ppl in cca. Thanks fen n yoke!

Haha..Mandy’s latest entry touched me. Aw..i almost forgot i've got these ppl in my life "tsk tsk cliched" Once in a while, its good to know that there are people who think of you and remember who and what you are. People who don’t mind waiting for you to go home together. People who cant wait to go out together to take a breather from school.People who you are comfortable with and can go out for as long as we like. People who will listen to whatever you say and even when they kind of miss out on it, u cld still say it out loud, den we'll still joke abt it, poking fun at each other, just as what buddies do.