double yays , new entry. ine's coming to an end soon and the last few weeks are spent gearing up the j1s, 3rd exco selection( yes 3rd! we're the 2nd batch!) and project ideas.all the events have made me remembered about last year's exco selection. i only remembered asking around who's running and on the night of college day ,i grabbed yvonne along with me and took the exco application form from the ine notice board last minute. hmm...why did i even ran ? i've always doubted my leadership ability, as in i have to admit i am not a strong person who can really influnce the people around me , one who can really lead and motivate, one who's smart and have brilliant ideas or one who can handle politics well. but i took the form as i had in mind that i did not want my jc life to be without anything, i wanted to be committed to something throughout this 1 1/2 years. i think this had to do with cca sessions in secondary school, all along in nanyang, guides heavily involved every single member, there was always something to do every week for everyone. so i guess this needs to be carried on, i need to be involved and really work and commit to a purpose. so i managed to get into exco.yup but i realized i might not have been able to get in if there were many more people running. wasn't outstanding or anything just a normal member who has been going for cca religiously...when we took over, the exco basically made up the club! one by one the other members left and few remained. so most of time club meetings were cosy , small group affairs and we worked among oursleves comfortably this way. however, year 2 came and new members entered. i daresay we did great in getting more members and trying to keep them.yet, there's this sudden switch and we are managing many more people now , and yes, disorganization sets in at times especially at the start of meetings. my leadership skills are tested , again, i feel that my capabilites in leading are limited. i take backstage admin roles ok, but i dont speak and express myself well, realized i am indeed sloooowwwwww, i cant catch ideas fast, like i've mentioned i am not smart and sometimes i do think i live in this naive little world of my own. i would believe that everyone's nice, not having an ulterior motive and theres always a reason explaining their actions.oh...and what i dislike most is i tend to be reliant on others. going through the batch of potential exco applicant forms makes me wonder if i myself have even fulfilled the criteria of a good leader.i think not. but a year has gone and why havent i been doing anything about it. uh ok, just an honest self-evaluation. yup, all that said, i did have a super super great time in ine, all thanks to the company. the start-up competition, bootcamp,crapping, laughing, painfully long meetings, enterprise day preparation,having dinner at curry wok were fun =). credits to j2s, huifen! yoketeng! yvonne! fiona! sharon! lokexie!

shall now mentioned about stuff we had today. civics period was hilarious when we begin our *ahem ahem* cultural mapping bukit timah trail itinerary group discussion. we were supposed to design this trail in bukit timah for um yeah fellow residents of bukit timah to take part in.so nj as part of the community shall involve the whole of bukit timah to show our love for our neighbourhood. wonderful. so anyways, our group was looking at the various ghost trails shown on the cultural mapping brochures and we started digressing, talking about the building beside nj. there's this rather run-down, looks abandoned and dilapidated huge red and white building behind nj's tc/ta block ( its not in nj itself). its creepy cos nobody knows what it is exactly for and theres this dirt road leading into the building, at the gate, i heard there's a sign that says "all trepassers will be prosecuted...." i mean the sign itself is ok and normal, but such a sign on a old, abandoned building is scary.ms feng suggested maybe its some intelligence unit cos' its government's land and if there's such a huge space un-utilised, it would have long been taken down. then the group began to have crazy ideas. like yvonne says maybe it only looks run-down on the front to mislead us, once you enter its all high tech... imagine all the people in those protective suits working on some top-secret defence technology, military ammunitions.and i said maybe its the nj's elites training centre. our group got high and suspected that maybe there were people spying on us from the building and listening to our conversations about them ( the building could be seen from the classroon we were in).lol. made us so suspicious that until chemistry double period, we were still looking at the building, at least for me.