a blog really comes in very useful esp when u need to come up with a individual pw journal about all the wonderful wonderful stuff tht happened for pw during the past 4mths. haha yah i've havent been keeping one religiously( who has??), so...Had to look back at archives and dig out entries abt complains of pw. Erh.. but realized there werent many but at least enough to let me track dates. Yah next time i shall blog down grouses, what we do about pw each time. copy paste to MS word. and yay done!

so what i did today for PW:
-crapping for PW journal
-digging out archives

on another note.. im so impressed by Mr K. Never have i seen such a teacher being so invovled in the planning of our cca proj. unless we are talking abt ms ng ( ny guider), but even if so she always leaves the planning for guides exco to do it and gives her advice now n then, oh yah but she does cook, firelight along with us. i'm actually scared of her.i thought all jc's teacher i/c will be rather slack, yah but not Mr Koh..his emails messages are lenghty, funny, lame as in u can see he puts in effort to write to us . n motivational too! he does excel sheet, he contacted suppliers.tis 1st time the club is handling such a bbbiiiiggggg thing. jiayou, like fen says , 'let the money roll in'. rahhaha

although still not feeling well but ( zero tolerance error) have to go sch tmr cos theres cca meeting. cannot miss! oh yah, and i think my family doc ( as in the one we usually visit) is so li4 hai4. he just launched his own book on sat ( cheem stuff abt Metabolic dunnoe what, in simpler terms healthy slimming for those whose health is failing due to high cholestrol). my parents went to the launching event and they came back with goody bags overflowing with health food and full stummicks too from the high tea. lucky. but anw y this doc is li4 hai4 cos he has 5 kids, and mind u they are all either pre-schling or in pri sch. still he has time for his work, patients, family and his bk! whoa. his super nice too. went to see him today and at the entrance was a huge flower ( er stand?) ..haha given by my parents to congratulate him on the launch of the bk. i was kinda surprised cos' didnt know they bought that and it cost $60 . meanie me told mother that u guys gt back the 60 bucks for the high tea and the frebbies. haha. n my father has become a fan of doc goh. he said he's a fanseeeeeeeee.

ah...sick agn. bad throat. hmm slept whole saturday away but i dont seem to get any better. yup but i'm happy to rest =).

this's a nice song =). Smallville's theme song! no longer 15 tho.

"100 years" by Five for Fighting

I'm 15 for a moment
Caught in between 10 and 20
And I'm just dreaming
Counting the ways to where you are I'm 22 for a moment
She feels better than ever
And we're on fire
Making our way back from Mars
15 there's still time for you
T ime to buy and time to lose
15, there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live
I'm 33 for a moment
Still the man, but you see I'm a they
A kid on the way
A family on my mind
I'm 45 for a moment
The sea is high
And I'm heading into a crisis
Chasing the years of my life
15 there's still time for you
Time to buy, Time to lose yourself
Within a morning star
15 I'm all right with you
15, there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live
Half time goes by
Suddenly you're wise
Another blink of an eye 67 is gone
The sun is getting high
We're moving on... I'm 99 for a moment
Dying for just another moment
And I'm just dreaming
Counting the ways to where you are
15 there's still time for you
22 I feel her too
33 you're on your way
Every day's a new day... 15 there's still time for you
Time to buy and time to choose
Hey 15, there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live

i dont like the "me" in nj, finding myself getting more and more serious and it kind of suck. its weird,bad cos i dont usually use the word "suck". back to the pt, sometimes i find it hard to talk to anyone in class for some unknown reason. am i overly serious, unapproachable??? when i try to join in, i dunnoe, but it seems like nobody hears you,yet i dont really want to be a tag-along too. actually, i hate to admit but I do feel lonely at times among my classmates tho it really dosent look like on the front. everyone has their cliques or lets say ppl they usually hang out with, but i guess i cld say i dont or at least is nt the really consistent type. There were a number of times the same situation replays, class was right behind me when we were having breaks or abt to go to another classroom, and when i turned back, they disappear as in really bu4 jian4 diao4. The thing is nobody calls u although a friend was just walking behind seconds ago, everyone just move on. So I will find myself in the middle of many unfamiliar faces, all heading in different directions..i guess im still not comfortable here in nj. oh well, sad case la. haha someone needs to give me a crash course on ‘ How to make friends’. - -
tht is probably why i dont feel as close to my present class as compared to my 1st 3 mths one. or maybe its because ppl in my clique have left the class. yah la, i m the the sort who is rather dependent on friends so i hate this feeling of feeling lost.

i like to have fun in school agn. looking up mandy n yx in their classrooms,going for lunch (outside) aft sch, slacking in classroom, gg bishan, thomson, orchard aft sch..its been like how many months since i went coro?? and honestly, i miss it. in these 2 years ( really short one), really wish tht i can make real gd friends in class. for now, I can say tht im closer to ppl in cca. Thanks fen n yoke!

Haha..Mandy’s latest entry touched me. Aw..i almost forgot i've got these ppl in my life "tsk tsk cliched" Once in a while, its good to know that there are people who think of you and remember who and what you are. People who don’t mind waiting for you to go home together. People who cant wait to go out together to take a breather from school.People who you are comfortable with and can go out for as long as we like. People who will listen to whatever you say and even when they kind of miss out on it, u cld still say it out loud, den we'll still joke abt it, poking fun at each other, just as what buddies do.

its been a long and busy week.. pw is asbsolutley crazy..kbox refuses to be interviewed ann they didnt bother to reply our email tho they said they wld.while we stupidly waited,we cld'nt wait any longer and were rejected flatly when we head down to toa payoh branch yesterday.
so announcement: ANYONE WHO HAS CONTACTS WITH ANY MANAGER/CAPTAIN/BOSS (tht wld be great) IN KBOX, PLS PLS PLS TELL ME RIGHT AWAY!!!!! Thanks =)
-from the desperate pwgrp(haha me actually)

i want "me" time!!!! thts why i parked myself in front of the tele yesternight and fell asleep half-way without doing anything constructive. as u can see my 'to do' list from the week before is still uncomplete.academic wise, i need to look through my disastrous CTs!! yah but its impossible today, its sunday le... and cca stuff piles up each week as mr k (new cca teacher i/c) delivers new surprises.

Things to do

CCa:
-type out fri's minutes
-format for registration of investlink stuff

PW:
- Contact Kster marketing manager
- EOM??

Bio:
- read notes
- tut qn set
-Ct review

Chem:
- pract qn
- last qn of kinetics tut
- chemicals rxn tut
-Ct review

Maths:
- quizzz

Econs:
-essay 2b

im kind of pissed..i stayed home to rest and so didnt went out for dinner. they went all the way to chinatown and so i waited till 9.45pm for my dinner which they say they would buy.and all they came back with was a small portion of oily lo mai gai (u know the rice that comes in aluminium "bowl" stored with the paus?). ok lah, they did told me to eat something b4 they came back, which i did- bread and an small egg tart. erh.. still was looking forward to the dinner back from chinatown. yes and its lo mai gai.haha how disappointing.lo mai gai is supposedly eaten during the day and not at night!! will get indigestion from the sticky and oily rice la. rahr...but i ate it anw, my lips have a layer of oil on them . and now im thinking of what other stuff to eat, cos i wld be staying up late. wah pissed....

volunteer work at yck grassroots club today. its my first day and its actually part of interact's scheme. basically, scheme is called "foster parenting", rest assured we do not foster childeren, we just have the responsibility of taking care of them while their parents attend a talk at the club, erh..well in this case we play with them. these children actually come from broken families and their foster families will change from time to time, which is rather sad, i don't understand why they have to change families. Its so Kingshaw, tho he dosent really change families( ppl taking p.lit shld know what i mean) and look what happened to him??! all his self-esteem, confidence,security, etc...gone!
anw, i was a lil' apprehensive at first, wondering what will happen if i say something wrong to them...or are the children difficult to handle, yup that sort of stuff.. haha but it all turned out well.
im not sure if im oversensitive or what,but i cld feel this sense of insecurity in them. yes, they play, scream, shout like other children do..but there's something different.they like to hold your hands, hug you,drape their hands over ur shoulder, make sure you are around at all times. one can actually see lots of this interaction in the room esp between a female volunteer and a little girl. for the 5hr long session, i wld always hold on to their hands,place my hands over their tiny shoulders,yah i really wanted them to feel secure as this monthly 5hr session might be the only time where they get to feel so. which i hope is not the case( the foster parents came for talks on foster parenting!!!!)
ok, i dunnoe if i am oversensitive again.while we drew on the majong paper,many or some of them instictively drew hearts.red heart,pink heart, yellow heart, blue heart,orange heart...a girl probably 7 years old drew a yellow heart carefully on the paper and then on top of the heart she wrote the words " i love you"...hmm..n once they have drawn, the children wld run all around agn...like nothing happened.

maybe im seeing too much into things .

CT grades are bluack,i failed chem o7 while maths and econs borderline. hmm and they have rose the standards for this year's promotion criteria to DDO7O7.i just hit the criteria, just.yes, work hard and harder..must must

..getting a headache.it has been a long day. went to MCYC after chem at 12.30, then came back sch for cca till 8.

things to do (own ref)

CCa:
-FP activity( SAt)
-Email NTU investlink
-Send member list to mrkoh
-inform sharon abt 'suggestion'
-try to print footnotes postcards
-get a file and prepare

Pw:
-prepare file
-print survey results
-print CC table

Chem:
-CommonTest review
-read notes
-chemical reactions tut

Bio:
-read notes
-tutorial qn set
-mcq qns

Maths:
-Common test review
-read function notes
-coordinate geo2 assign
-function 1(2) tut

Economics:
-Common test review
-read notes
-econs tys 4.2

damn..headache's getting worse.

i feel lousy.
looooosy.
and angry at myself.
ben4 dan4 la

um...if u r bored and gt nothing else to do or u r getting illogical ( like me) try this, game called Grow. there are other cute playstuff at the side too. aim of the game is to ensure all ur tools reach maximum growth. so vary the order put the tools into the 'grow' machine. haha. i tried many times and i clndnt get one to grow to its max only! haha so if , if anyone tries and manage to, haha can tell me? cos sis refuses to enlighten me or at least tell me where i can get the cheat.hahaha

hello everyone. CT was over yesterday. but i've got no mood to do an evaluation about it over here. i m sure i did study but not prepared enough. seriously, my mind was in the confused state whenever i did the papers especially for maths, completed like less than 50% of the paper and out of that like how many are correct?..dead la.. juz hope i manage to pass everything, hahah but for maths is like impossible. erh gp too.. essay sucked and compre even more. lack of practice!!! pray tht miracles do happen

i am so S-L-O-W. why wasnt i born to be someone tht work fast...argh